“Dogs have a way of finding the people who need them, and filling an emptiness we didn’t ever know we had.” – Thom Jones
I just had to have my Great Pyrenees euthanized on November 6, 2019. Cancer had attacked his body and he lost the war. He was only six years old.
Today, January 22,2020 I had a veterinarian appointment for my Australian Shepherd, Kate. X-Rays showed her lungs were riddled with tumors. I was devastated.
Kate was born on January 1, 2011. We became very attached to each other. I was a horseshoer and she was my ride dog. We were inseparable.
The vet thinks she has 1 to 2 weeks left with me before she crosses the bridge. Her crossing will leave a huge hole in my heart. Those who don’t love and respect animals like I do think I am being silly. For those of you who understand what it is like to love or be loved by a dog I thank God for you because you get it.
“The one best place to bury a good dog is in the heart of its master.” – Unknown
The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible.” – Oscar Wilde
For those who don’t know me I retired from horseshoeing and took a job as a grounds keeper for 3 cemeteries located in Farmington, MO. As I go about cutting the grass I often wonder about the people buried there and what they were like when they were alive.
There was the body of a man that came into the mortuary. Very little information came with him. The funeral director tried their best to find family members but to no avail. All they basically knew was his birth date and death date and that he was married. The only option left for the funeral director was to bury him instead of cremation.
The owner of the mortuary wanted to find someone to say some words over him before he was lowered into his final resting place. So I volunteered for the job.
In putting together some words for a service my mind began to wonder about who he was. What did he do in life? Did he die alone? What kind of person was he? Did he have any family left? So many questions that I will never know the answer to.
The funeral was held the Thursday before Good Friday. I was pall bearer and minister and went back to cutting grass after the funeral. A worker for the vault company and two grave diggers were the other pall bearers. RIP! So much mystery and no answers.
The gentleman was lowered into the ground around 10:40 a.m.. l went back to cutting grass. Around noon I looked back and noticed an older lady standing at the grave. I started to go talk to her but then I realized she had her reasons and I respected that and kept cutting grass. After a few minutes she left. I still wonder who she was but was happy somebody who obviously knew him came to send him off. Life mysteries.
“So don’t you sit upon the shoreline and say you’re satisfied, choose to chance the rapids and dare to dance the tide.” The River, Garth Brooks
This is one of my all time favorites of Brooks. Not just because of my love of the river but because of the way he compares our dreams with the river.
Every flood that happens on the river changes the appearance of the river sometimes even changing its course. How many times has this happened to you? Some major life event happens and forces a change in your dreams.
How many times have you settled for second best instead of best because you keep letting it slip through your fingers and in your mind you won’t achieve “”best” so you give up on your dream and settle for second best?
St Francois River bear Farmington, MO.
As the water of the river enters a shallow area and the gradient of the river becomes steeper rapids are formed. These rapids are representative of the hard times in your life. What you do here is very important as to whether your dream becomes a reality or not.
People who float the rivers have different skills. There are six classes of rapids with I) being the safest and VI being the hardest and most dangerous. When a kayaker or canoeist comes to this spot they have to decide how good they are and they will either pull around the rapids or go for it. No one can make the decision for them. You have to make this decision yourself.
So here you are looking at that very spot on your “river of life”, you are at a point where it is very important to stay focused on your dreams. Don’t lose site of them. Could you fail? Failure is always a possibility. There are no guarantees in life except for the fact that in order to succeed one must try.
So here you are. You have to decide what you are going to do. Are you going to sit upon that shoreline and be completely satisfied or are you going to choose to chance the rapids and dare to dance the tide?
As you dance with another…what matters most is the trust you place on yourself and your partner. To dance as one unit moving in synchrony and feeling the harmony of your beating hearts . This is the ideal connection which makes a dance come alive in the moments.
Yet as much as trust is a much needed trait in dancing together as a couple, often trust takes time to build and is also a subjective matter amongst dancers.
To trust is to let go doubt
To trust is to allow space for growth
To trust is to know patience in waiting
To trust is to allow space for faith
To trust another is not easy
For one and all…
To some it may be the most difficult
But trust is certainly worth trying!
To trust takes effort not assumptions
It takes practice in time and space. For…
The last day of 2018 is finally upon us and 2019 is waiting in the wings. It is definitely going to be different for me. With all the rage about “little house” living I decided to move into a 10 x 14 cabin along with my Great Pyrenes and Australian Shepherd. It is going to be a challenge I know.
I do have electric but no running water. I do have access to a shower and bathroom. I have been living in it for about 2 weeks now and so far so good. The dogs have a fenced in yard and handle the close quarters real well. They have adjusted well and I hope to enlarge their fenced in yard real soon.
I finished the inside of a prebuilt cabin. I chose to do it as economically as possible and have managed to keep it under a thousand dollars. Instead of buying cabinets I made shelves and I have a compost toilet.
It isn’t anything fancy but it is livable and cozy. I heat it with an oil filled electric heater that will run you out of the cabin even with temps in the teens.
I have some property that I want to build on and this adventure will help me see what is important and not when I build my place.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. It is deeply appreciated. Wishing everyone a happy and prosperous New Year. God bless you all.
“Time will pass and seasons will come and go.” – Roy Bean
The end of the fishing season on the rivers here in Missouri for me has come to the end of the season. On sunny days I will still float the river but fishing will have to wait until spring.
I know you all are probably getting tired of hearing my fishing stories so I will keep today’s blog short. I put in the river at 8:30 a.m. and the temperature was 30 degrees. The “weather guessers” were calling for a high of 60. The fourth cast of the day I caught a largemouth bass. It appeared the fishing would be good toaday. So I thought.
The wind was a force I really didn’t want to deal with. At one point I was going through a shallow, swift area of the river when a wind gust hit me head on and actually pushed me and the yak back up river against the current. It made it pretty difficult to fish.
That morning I caught 2 large mouth bass and one smallmouth bass. Oh well a bad day on the river is better than a good day at work. After lunch it didn’t get any better. I caught 1 smallmouth and 2 perch and that was it. It wasn’t the way I wanted to end the fishing season but next season will be here before we know it.
It was a good year. The Big River really is becoming a trophy smallmouth bass area. The largest one I caught, actually put in the boat, was 16 inches. Here in Missouri it takes approximately 7 to 9 years for them to grow to 15 inches. I also caught a 19 inch largemouth and an 8 pound channel cat.
I want to thank my high school friends David Tripp and Mark Nelson for taking time out of their busy schedules and doing some fishing with me. I had a good time and hope you two did also.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. It is very much appreciated. I hope you enjoyed the photos. Photography is one of my passions. Remember to spread the love, be kind to each other and above all, respect each other.
All the photos were taken on the Big River near Desloge, MO.